It sucks to be holding on to a dream that will never come true, to wait for someone who has no intention of returning.

At the end of the day, I realised that I still love you.

It's no longer that painful during the waking moments, but when I'm intoxicated and left alone, I miss you more than ever.

I just wanna hear your voice for the last time.

To hear you say goodbye for real.

I still miss you.

I miss looking forward to our midnight calls, I miss talking to you about anything and everything.

I miss you telling me, "C'mon Marjorie, you can do this, I trust that you can do it". 

I miss you spurring me on and I miss you always giving me that bit of courage to do things I believe I can't achieve.

You were my source of courage, my motivator.

You gave me strength to go on and to step out of my comfort zone.

You were where I seek comfort and solace in.

 You were the reason I still had something to look forward to when my day isn't going right.

Now, I only have memories to look back on and your words to remind me that I'm more than who I think I am. 

That I can do so much better and that I'm actually not that cowardly.

There's so much I want to tell you about, and I wish the person who's by my side is still you.

You prolly won't see this and that's a reason why I choose to type it here. I miss you, I can't deny it no matter how much I try to. I miss you so much till my heart aches. It's only barely 4 weeks that we've been together, but I haven't been so happy and in love before. I hate myself so much for all that I've said to you; really I'm the selfish one. You alr made the effort to talk to me every single night and it was taking such a toll on your body, but you did it without complaints.