School is starting tomorrow.
And I'm so not looking forward to it, yet kinda excited 'cos it will be a new start and I got into psychology for my cds!!!!
PSYCHOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Really happy that it is one of the subjs I'm taking now even though many people said that it was difficult.
But well, it's my interest and if it really is difficult, I'll still try my best like how I will for math anyway.
Oh, and as school reopens for me tmw, at the same time
ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TAKING O LEVELS!
Jiayou! It'll be such a big relief after your last paper!
Work hard till then! (:
I feel like I'm too caught up with present life that it leaves me no time to go back to old friends.
I miss all of you so much. Really.
Am I still not used to the new chapter of my life or am I just too sentimental?
I know you're probably on the verge of asking me to stop dwelling on the past and move on but that's it, you don't get how I'm feeling right now.
There seems to be nothing for me to move forward to when as I go along, I get distant to people whom I once shared such intimate relationship with.
You tell me this is life, losing people along the way and all,
but can't you see?
They made my life.
Without them, my life is akin to nothing.
I love you, those people who mean to me.
Do I really still have to list out who?
You know who you are.
Even though I may deny and say I don't like you in your face, but it's always the same people I keep going back to at the end of the day.
Too often in life, we take each living day for granted.
We expect to fall asleep in the night and still open our eyes the next morning.
What if, one day we never do?
I think about death quite often actually.
Just two nights ago, I was thinking about my own funeral and I was thinking about what is so scary about dying.
Is it the pain of having to be cremated, to be buried or to be left breathless and motionless forever?
I realised it wasn't any of the above.
It is the pain of having to leave everything behind in this world and the pain the living is going to endure of your passing.
And I won't want to leave with any regrets or unaccomplished things I wanted to do.
But it is really hard not to take things for granted when expectations of your own future come so naturally.
Like I expect that I will graduate, find a job, get married, have kids then die eventually.
Well, I believe I'm not the only one who hold such expectations of life, right?
Btw, don't judge me from my recent posts!
I'm a happy girl, really!
It's just that a lot of such stuff get to me some times.
Here's something happy! ^^
Photo Credits: Pei Qi, Wenyi, Felicia
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI QI!
Even though we celebrated your birthday like really late, I still hope we made your day!
Love you girl, although I'm the one in the clique who make you angry most often (I guess so)!
Okay, I'm like finally done!
You know what, I took 2 days to write this post 'cos I was so stuck with writing and without pictures.
Shall try to blog more often, I promise!
Even Wenyi also got blog leh! *feels ashamed*
Not the break down kind of crying but just teared because many things or rather, people made me felt touched and emotional.
Last Saturday evening, I went out with my Ganma and her family to celebrate my godbrother's birthday.
And throughout, many small incidences made me realised once again how much they love me.
Simple acts like just holding my hand when crossing the road, or just by taking food for me when I could have took it myself made me felt touched.
I must have said this many times, but really, even though we are not blood related, going to their home makes me feel home and I feel like I belong there too.
My grandfather was hospitalised on Friday, and I went to visit him yesterday.
When I saw how frail and pale he looked in those oversized hospital wear,
I just teared because it was heart wrenching to see him like that.
And when he couldn't recognise me and mistook me for my youngest aunt (he suffers from senile dementia),
I regret not having to be able to visit him more often.
You know, when someone you knew all your life couldn't recognise you anymore,
it felt like a part of you emptied, as if the link between you and the other person was gone.
Well, I only have myself to blame.
2011 is definitely not a good year for me.
Many unhappy stuffs and obstacles have been recurring.
My aunt is right, life wouldn't be as exciting if it isn't filled up with such troubling matters that tries to mess up your life.
The best way is to put up a good fight and win.
Nothing can take me down, right?
Nothing can take you down either.
To you, you and you who's struggling with whatever hurdles you meet in life,
you know that 10 years later when you look back, this obstacle won't seem as tough as it is now.
And, I'm always 8 numbers away. (:
When Capricorns are silent, they think more than ever.
I know I haven't been doing up a proper post for ages,
I'm so sorry to my small number of fans out there (hahah, bhb, but the statistics showed it!) who still keep checking my blog for updates!
Thank youuuuu!
^^
Anyway, just to update you guys on my life,
for the past few months, life was mainly still revolving around school.
(And I should feel totally guilty about blogging here while my group mate is editing the finals of my proj :/ )
Well, at least I should be contented since
I WATCHED HARRY POTTER TWICE IN THE THEATRES.
I bought wedges.
Went to my first clothes buffet!
Then got like lots of new clothes waiting for me.
Saw almost all of my girls in the past month!!!!
Holidays are coming in another 14 more days!
Forged even stronger friendship with some people.
Got good results for my weakest subject! (Math :X)
Not bad right?
Hahahahah.
But life is never fulfilling enough for me.
At the end of the day, there is still something, there is always something, that is waiting for me to complete.
I know of one thing, but there are often more than one thing that remains for me to achieve.
Sadly, sometimes I don't know what that is.
Ever get this feeling?
Maybe it's just me, thinking too much, again.
Well, shall post pictures next time okay?
It's already 0103 in the morning and well, I guess I do need some sleep after only surviving on 6 hours of sleep yesterday.
Oyasuminasai!
Sweet dreams (:
P/S. I've got this thing for Legolas ever since I watched LOTR. #justsaying
If I ever say something negative about you or scold you in your face, it either means that you totally deserved it, or you are one of my true friends I want to help.
I miss this little space of mine here on the internet. :/
And well, I just can't stop complaining about school.
There are happy events like,
PASSING MY MATH,
but there's this emptiness in me TP can't fill or touch.
I simply miss every single PRSS and PCS friend out there.
There is no sense of belonging here.
Maybe it's because I'm not used to it yet but well, I just can't seem to fit in anywhere at times.
And, I'm not coping with school work.
Except for language lessons, all other subjects are like fergpihuwjocjpkgh messed up.
Hais.
And it's not like school is not enough for me to worry about.
There are just so many personal problems piling up with no solutions.
Maybe there is, but I don't have the opportunity yet so I can't solve it either.
Today just seems like the ultimate day everything bad is penetrating through me.
)':
Ever thought if someone important to you become lifeless one day and will never respond to you no matter how hard you call their name? I can't imagine that.
"Fact: We only dream of what we know. Our dreams are frequently full of strangers who play out certain parts – did you know that your mind is not inventing those faces – they are real faces of real people that you have seen during your life but may not know or remember? The evil killer in your latest dream may be the guy who pumped petrol into your dad’s car when you were just a little kid. We have all seen hundreds of thousands of faces throughout our lives, so we have an endless supply of characters for our brain to utilize during our dreams."
Well, I can't expect everyone to like me everywhere I go. I'm no Miss Popular. And I don't want to be one either. Nah, I won't change myself to suit other people's likings. Why should I? They aren't worth my change anyway. Moreover, I'm not a puppet made to suit people's likings, in the end, I still can't please every single person on Earth too. I don't need 10000 friends out there, I only need the best friends I currently have now, who accepts me for who I am.
Anw, this is my first blog post from my new laptop! ^v^
Heheheh.
I totally love my new laptop!
Why is it so awesummmm and prettaaay????
Hahahaha. Okay, I should get over this new-laptop-craze!
How's school everyone?
I hope you all are coping, or at least trying your best to cope.
Don't give up no matter what okay?
Even if you only have 2-3 hours of sleep everyday, don't give up.
Cox I won't give up too!
Let's all do this together okay!
We'll pull through eventually (:
Gambate!
Anw, the past week was quite fun!
Especially going to play badminton with my pretty girls this Monday.
Thanks so much for turning up, even though Felicia can't make it (but, I get to see her everyday! Hah.), still, it's a great feeling seeing my best friends after a trashy school week.
I love 'em, really.
Thanks Cindy for spending your very ex polariod films on us!
They are like so pretty luh, and now I can put their photo in my wallet and carry it wherever I go!
^v^
Ohhh, and we went to sing k last sat!
But only got Felicia, PQ and me ):
The BEST way to release all your stress/troubles/unhappiness all at once.
Had fun as well! :D
Heheheh.
Pei Qi is like so cute la! Hahahahah.
Okay, must give credits to Felicia for the photos once again!
And ys and Cindy and whoever else I always steal pics from!
THANK YOU!
Last but not least,
W1101
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4E5
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5C
I love both sec and pri sch classmates, now I'll work on loving my poly ones!
