Being apart from you is the hardest thing to endure, ever. I miss you constantly and you fill my mind and heart every single second. I don't know that you can miss someone so much. It is just so difficult to explain how much I want to see you all the time, and how not being able to always kills a little part of me inside.
I can see you 4 times a week and still can't get enough of you.
I can listen to your voice everyday and still think that it is not enough.
I selfishly want all of you for myself.
You are already mine but I can't help but still want more.
Create more happy moments together, laugh more with you, learn with you, grow with you, try out new things with you.
I guess the effects of being so immensely in love is being too emotional.
I love you so much till I lose some of my reasoning, I go crazy at times when I can't see you.
I unreasonably feel that all of you, including your time and freedom should be mine.
Well, no relationship is going to work out with such an unhealthy trend.
There should be times together, but there should be times that we go do our own things; for absence makes the heart grow fonder.
It still kills me to miss you so much, I don't know if I can live on if you were going to be gone forever, I guess I can only want to join you in wherever you are headed to.
Even to the ends of the world, even to the afterlife.
It is impossible though, to stick to you every single moment.
But it only makes me appreciate more whatever time I have with you.
Even if it is just for a minute, your presence can still help to overflow my heart with joy.
While I still miss you a lot when you are not by my side, I will learn that it is not forever, that I will get to see you again soon enough.
And that while you are not physically here, I always have you in my heart and you have me in yours too.
Your wifey would slowly learn to be a better other half for you.
I'm always filled with uncontrollable emotions for you but all these emotions should not blind my rational thinking and to be understanding towards you.
Love should be both selfish and selfless at the same time.
I can selfishly want all of you, yet selflessly give in to you and put your priorities over mine.
Let's continue this journey with a better light and no more hurtful words to each other.
I know that you will never let go of my hand and I promise I will never give up on you either.
There's a eternity long for both of us, are you ready to go on?
Forever is awaiting.