HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI QI!!
sorry for the late post ): didn't use the comp till today.
hope you had a memorable birthday this year.
love you always(((:
not to forget,
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
thank you to all the teachers for everything you've done for me.
i think i've sent most of the teachers a text.
but of course, that won't be all.
prelims started on thursday.
seems like i screwed up my english, ss and chinese.
felt very bad after taking the papers.
don't feel that i'm gonna do well.
i've to make good use of my sep hols to do some neat revision!
but i guessed i wasted a day today.
idk what's happening.
but i keep feeling very sleepy and the left side of my head hurts a lot.
it was as if someone was pulling a part of my brain with a string.
and this didn't happen only once.
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you know when you get the kind of feeling that you might be dying soon?
it was exactly that kind of feeling that i get whenever my head starts to hurt like that.
haix. nvm. maybe it isn't as serious as what i made it to be.
it could be just pure lack of sleep or normal headaches.
but i hate eating panadols so i won't be eating them when it hurts.
luckily it gets over after a while.
speaking of which, i just remembered that my ear will start hurting at times when i'm eating.
what's wrong with me?!
why got so many problems.
this is so fcking irritating!
forget it forget it. i don't have time for them anw.
To:_____
the most important person in my life,
rmb you asked me why i love you?
i said i didn't know.
then you said i didn't truly love you then.
i had to give a reason why.
actually, it wasn't that i don't know.
it's because i simply love everything about you.
there's nothing about you that i dislike.
even looking at your backview makes me feel like crying.
it's been one year plus.
and during this period of time,
i've spent it on waiting for you to reply me again.
now, i don't need to, but i still have to wait bec you said it's impossible between us.
i don't know what will happen between us in the future,
maybe my feelings won't be as strong as it seems to be.
but i know i can't force you either.
i'm so sorry for breaking my promises so often.
i know you hate liars a lot but in this period of time,
i've lied to you time and again.
thank you for always forgiving me in the end.
you could've chosen the harsh way,
but in the end you never did.
that's maybe one of the reasons why i can never get over you.
i don't regret letting you know about my feelings for you.
but if time could rewind, i would not choose to let you know it that way
my world fell apart when you start ignoring me for the first time.
and it always did when you do.
i know i've been unreasonable at times.
i'm really sorry.
but unrequitted love can really make someone go mad.
i'm sorry for throwing my temper at you sometimes too.
afterall, you didn't do anything wrong.
there's nothing wrong in loving someone too.
but if my loving you has hurt you instead,
then i'm the one at fault.
thanks for regarding me as a friend again
thanks for being that listening ear whenever i need it.
thanks for trying not to hurt me again.
thanks for giving me so many chances.
thanks for making me feel that everything's gonna be ok.
thanks for being honest with me.
thanks for putting it up with me.
thanks for everything.
you're the world's ever best guy.
and if given a choice, i will still choose to fall for you.
ily.
my favourite Eng song for now(:
