Guess I'm having a little of an emotional breakdown now.

I just keep tearing over the little-est stuffs and it just never ends like now, I'm tearing again while typing this.

Sigh, sometimes I feel like I'm not important and insignificant to the people around me. 

It feels like I'm not important enough for them to treat me a little better.

Hahah, I know that's a selfish part there wanting people to treat me better but well, sometimes comparing myself to other people, I feel lonely at times.
Really need mood control.

Well, okay back to studying before I tear again.

Last paper tomorrow!!!
Can't wait for freedom!!

因为回头看你，心会痛，会想继续顽固的执著， 所以我不能让自己停下脚步， 不能让自己有想你的缝隙。

Lesson #1: Guard your heart

Over and over again, people failed me. 

They failed me by not being able to reciprocate the love I have for them.

Some knew how to appreciate, others were jerks. 

But never once, the results turn out differently.

Every single time, I let myself fall into such a position without thinking.

I let them hurt the true love I have for them, now, I no longer know what is the true love I used to have in mind. 

Then, I finally grew up.

I learnt that girls should be cherished, one's love is not meant to be used as jokes or a hold for someone over you. 

If that person is not treating you right, it's okay. There will be someone eventually who will know the right way to treat and love you.

Someday, each of us will be the most important person in another's eyes.

It doesn't matter if it is not happening now.

Your heart matters the most, it deserves someone who knows the same way to love your heart like how you would love his. 

I took a long time and a painful lesson to learn all of these. 

Today, it finally came to me that my friends and family are so much more important than that one person.

They are the people who see my sadness and appreciate my crazy and optimistic ways.

I'll never change my character to suit one person.

I'll guard my heart closely and I'll not let it succumb to all that pain it had gone through in the past as from now. 

Short posts once in a while nowadays cos despite wanting to write in my diary more than here, it's much more convenient to flush out all my thoughts here.

It's only been less than 5 days and I'm already used to talking to you everyday.

Today, I had to study for a test tomorrow so I told myself that I wouldn't talk to you.

Also, that was to give both of us some freedom as well.

Don't think you'll like it if I kept initiating conversations with you so often.

But then you came online, and there I was wondering all the time if should talk to you or not.

It's just so tempting and hard to resist that urge to talk to you.

And just as I was typing all of the above, I checked again and you came back online.

Omg omg omg.

It's just an indescribable magical feeling to see you online.

It just felt like you were there with me and you weren't gonna walk away from me and leave me alone.

Hehehe. That bubbly feeling again.

What I want to ask is if there's a chance between us.

Slowly, you're melting my heart away.

Been such a long time since I felt so happy because of just one important person.

I don't know what lies in the future for us but if you're willing to let me work hard for this happiness, I'll put in my utmost best for you.

Thank you. 

^^