Thanks for being nice to me.

I really feel that things have been so good recently till I feel that life is too good to be true. 

It's not just relationship wise, but all my friends and family too.

The things that they've done for me, little ones, big ones, for all which I feel so grateful for.

This year, I haven't been all nice.

I became worse.

I closed myself up a lot and well, I chose to become devoid with a lot of my feelings.

And in turn, with the destitute of my feelings, I hurt many people in life whom have cared for me.

I feel guilty for all the hurt I've caused and more than once, instead of correcting my own mistakes, I chose to turn it all off.

Months back, I told myself to turn off a lot of feelings, to turn off a lot of my kindness so I no longer need to feel any hurt, pain and devastation.

Yes, I did feel much happier, I grew stronger and more independent too.

But it has come to a point that I became too selfish and I thought of my own happiness more than anyone else's.

Despite all of this bad stuff that I've done, no one blamed me, no one gave up on me, no one stop trying to be friends with me.

And whenever I had a problem or a situation, everyone was there for me all the while.

I can never repay all the favours and kindness that I've received in my whole life.

Thank you for staying, thank you for always being endearing and forgiving towards me, my beloved family and friends.

I apologise for all the bad things that I've done so far.

Things are only going to start getting better and better in December!

And, that will start from me changing for the better so that I stop disappointing and hurting the ones I love and whom loves me back. (: