HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI QI!!
sorry for the late post ): didn't use the comp till today.
hope you had a memorable birthday this year.
love you always(((:
not to forget,
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
thank you to all the teachers for everything you've done for me.
i think i've sent most of the teachers a text.
but of course, that won't be all.
prelims started on thursday.
seems like i screwed up my english, ss and chinese.
felt very bad after taking the papers.
don't feel that i'm gonna do well.
i've to make good use of my sep hols to do some neat revision!
but i guessed i wasted a day today.
idk what's happening.
but i keep feeling very sleepy and the left side of my head hurts a lot.
it was as if someone was pulling a part of my brain with a string.
and this didn't happen only once.
)):
you know when you get the kind of feeling that you might be dying soon?
it was exactly that kind of feeling that i get whenever my head starts to hurt like that.
haix. nvm. maybe it isn't as serious as what i made it to be.
it could be just pure lack of sleep or normal headaches.
but i hate eating panadols so i won't be eating them when it hurts.
luckily it gets over after a while.
speaking of which, i just remembered that my ear will start hurting at times when i'm eating.
what's wrong with me?!
why got so many problems.
this is so fcking irritating!
forget it forget it. i don't have time for them anw.
To:_____
the most important person in my life,
rmb you asked me why i love you?
i said i didn't know.
then you said i didn't truly love you then.
i had to give a reason why.
actually, it wasn't that i don't know.
it's because i simply love everything about you.
there's nothing about you that i dislike.
even looking at your backview makes me feel like crying.
it's been one year plus.
and during this period of time,
i've spent it on waiting for you to reply me again.
now, i don't need to, but i still have to wait bec you said it's impossible between us.
i don't know what will happen between us in the future,
maybe my feelings won't be as strong as it seems to be.
but i know i can't force you either.
i'm so sorry for breaking my promises so often.
i know you hate liars a lot but in this period of time,
i've lied to you time and again.
thank you for always forgiving me in the end.
you could've chosen the harsh way,
but in the end you never did.
that's maybe one of the reasons why i can never get over you.
i don't regret letting you know about my feelings for you.
but if time could rewind, i would not choose to let you know it that way
my world fell apart when you start ignoring me for the first time.
and it always did when you do.
i know i've been unreasonable at times.
i'm really sorry.
but unrequitted love can really make someone go mad.
i'm sorry for throwing my temper at you sometimes too.
afterall, you didn't do anything wrong.
there's nothing wrong in loving someone too.
but if my loving you has hurt you instead,
then i'm the one at fault.
thanks for regarding me as a friend again
thanks for being that listening ear whenever i need it.
thanks for trying not to hurt me again.
thanks for giving me so many chances.
thanks for making me feel that everything's gonna be ok.
thanks for being honest with me.
thanks for putting it up with me.
thanks for everything.
you're the world's ever best guy.
and if given a choice, i will still choose to fall for you.
ily.
my favourite Eng song for now(:
i miss him)):i completed my AS. i completed my AS. i completed my AS. i completed my AS.
I COMPLETED MY AS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY! still can't believe that i completed it man!!!
YAY! still can't believe that i completed it man!!!
OMG.
finally can sleep early!
but not today yet. gonna accompany cindy for a while at least. JY dear!(:
and,
THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYBODY!!!
i just realised that many many people have helped me in many different ways for my AS,
be it moral support, encouragement, physically helping out etc etc.
i owe you guys one! and i promise i'll be there whenever you need me too(:
i guess most of you should have received my text, those who didn't, you're equally appreciated as well and i'm thanking you right here!
went out with clique just now to celebrate pei qi's birthday!
but i was late bec of AS and had to leave early bec of tuition.
SORRY PEI QI!!!!
i promise next year's one i will stay throughout!
anw, we went to this "restaurant", Tian Tian Steamboat to celebrate.
It's at some dilapidated area in Bugis and guess what?!
there're crockoaches there!!!
there're crockoaches there!!!
damn gross can.
and they dare to charge $16 per pax!
daylight robbery!
i can't post any photos of the party btw, i didn't took any.
but felicia did, so perhaps i'm gonna steal her photos. heheh.
today's dedication:
To: Eleanor
hey my sweetest girl!
stay strong!!
noticed that you haven't been very happy recently.
but except for giving you encouragement and being here,
i really don't know what else i could do for you.
if you need anything, really, just let me know!
i'll do my utmost to help you, you mean a lot to me you know!
be happy ok?
i want the cheerful Eleanor to be back!
anw, it seems that we are getting distant from each other nowadays.
sometimes when you're troubled, i don't even know.
when i am, you don't too.
i don't like this feeling!
i don't like the awkwardness we're starting to get nowadays.
feel so sad!
but since i've finished my coursework, maybe it's time to give this friendship some life back!
all of us have been very very tired these few days.
especially in the morning,
both of us don't feel like talking bec we're too tired.
but i must tell you that you're really very important to me!
i will never ever want to lose you.
i've lost you once, in sec 1, i don't want history to repeat itself!
I always feel very apologetic towards you.
I feel that i'm not doing enough for you yet, you're the one who's giving out more instead.
Sorry girl.
I know sorry isn't enough, but i will use my actions to prove it!
Cheer up sweetie, no matter what you're facing, part of me will always be supporting you and be with you.
Thank you for everything, bffl!
Jiayou for O levels, but don't be too stressed up ok?
(L), marjorie
btw, today's the creation of the MAC!
(marjorie, adilah, cindy)
looking forward to our one year anniversary^^
ok, bye guys. done for blogging today. cya in the later part of the day.
#19 FTW!
Love is You.hey, thanks for being there just now when i was in great pain(:
you were a good distraction!
Thank you for everything, you are the best guy ever.(L)
ARGH. TRYING TO FINISH 80% OF MY PORTFOLIO TODAY.
want GG alr la.
i'm so tired!!!
*finding energy and determination*
but at the thought of my friends and my dad accompanying me through the night,
but at the thought of my friends and my dad accompanying me through the night,
i vow i will finish my portfolio!!!
JY EVERYONE, 2 more days left!!!
tmw 18:00 will be the end, ok not really, still got theory paper but who cares.
GO GO GO!
thank you for the support buddies!!!:Dk, gotta run off to complete my porfolio, blog on mon. BYE!
OFFICIAL MV.
hi guys(:
i changed my blogskin again.
didn't feel like doing anything else until i found the right blogskin.
anw, i've decided that from now one, i'm gonna dedicate a post at the end to one person everytime i blog.
because there are so much things i want to say to so many of you.
so today's lucky winner is........ *drumrolls* LOL.
i changed my blogskin again.
didn't feel like doing anything else until i found the right blogskin.
anw, i've decided that from now one, i'm gonna dedicate a post at the end to one person everytime i blog.
because there are so much things i want to say to so many of you.
so today's lucky winner is........ *drumrolls* LOL.
To: Cindaaay
Hey girl,
how long has it been since we've known each other?
it's been pri 5 till now, 6 years and counting.
i remember the first time i got to know you was during our Sichuan trip with pcs.
have i told you before?
you're one of the friends whom i've got the feeling that i have to have this friend no matter what just upon first sight. (no it's not love at first sight!)
and true enough, you're now one of my best friends!!!
there's nothing i can ever do enough to thank you for always being there.
Sorry for being such a bad friend, and not being one that's good enough to let you share your troubles and thoughts with.
I know that my appearance in your life have caused you a lot of troubles and upsets and i've always been doing things that irritate you or to anger you.
I'm really sorry, bffl(best friend for life) sometimes i really don't mean it, and sometimes i admit, was intentional to try to make some fun out of it, even though it was often too late to realise that i've gone too far.
Last year had been one of our worst year ever.
First part of the year was due to my frequent moodswings.
Because then, you were my only closest best friend but yet, it seems like you were always closer to other people than me and i was really upset as it felt like i no longer had a place in your heart anymore. Everytime i see you with someone else enjoying your time so much more than you were with me, i really didn't know what to do and i was really jealous, angry and sad.
Moreover, nothing you do could make me hate you completely. Nothing.
Because no matter how angry i am with you, at the end of the day, you just can't be kicked out of my top 10 friends list.
See how important you are!!!
Nice, you called me while i was blogging about you. haha. :D
anw, we'll walk out of all this together(:
we've already been through so much, it shows that the friendship between us will be unbreakable, i hope.
I LOVE YOU, CINDY!!!!!
sometimes i imagine of us walking together to work when we are adults, tearing at each other's wedding, bringing our kids to the same school etc.
but let's make our friendship last even longer than that.
i really don't know what would have happen if you've never stepped into my life.
thank you for being here, bffl!!!
(L), marjorie.
