I'm tired.

So tired of everything.

I don't want to ask eagerly for something then be disappointed because of an answer I don't want to hear.

And I'm tired of trying to reply when someone asks if I'm ok and I had to force a smile and lie when I'm totally not.

I'm tired of all the conspiracy and competing.

I'm tired of working on my relationship.
I feel so tired.
All I want to is to get a good night's sleep and forget everything for a while.
Thanks but sorry, leave me alone.
I'll only be accepting concerns from people whom I know that truly care.
And not just a routine concern that you had to ask because you had to.
I just want to be who I am, truly.

It's my fault.

It's always my fault.

No matter what happens, whatever that happens, I'm always the one who caused it.

I'm always the root of the problem, the reason why you flare, the cause of what we are today.

I guess, you guys would be better off without me, right?

Since that's what you all have always been telling me, directly or indirectly.

I'm the one who spend without thinking, the one who knows how to enjoy life in the best way, the one who does everything without thinking about anything.

I'm selfish, short tempered, ill mannered, unfeeling, unfillial, childish, unreasonable, the worst child you've ever wanted.

You said it yourself, I'm just quoting off you.

Don't you ever regret in the future.

This, is who I am.

Anyone who wants a clean cut off from me from now on, tell me.

I'm never going to bother you again.

Never ever.

唉，真没用，是个大笨蛋呐！

打自己的脑袋瓜五十下也补不回来啦！

Haix, okay, I must admit I don't have the courage yet!

The first step is always hard to make eh?

Went shopping with Adilah on Sat(:

I missed that Giraffeeee!!!

P/S, Her iphone cover also have giraffe on it!!! SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHA.

Why did we give Adilah the nickname Giraffe in the first place anw?

Can't rmb alr.

Tsk, talking about iphone, it's alr a norm for ppl to carry iphones/itouch(es?)

Sian ttm, I want one too!

:/

I finally bought the bag that I've been eyeing for ages at CottonOn on Sat!

Ok la, their bags a lot of ppl carrying alr,

but still,

I wanted one!

And I bought it(:

I spent $42 on buying clothes + bag.

Not enough though.

Gotta buy more if not I'll be wearing the same clothes every week for poly!
What's more, mum's sponsoring!!!
They were having sectional and ding laoshi was there.
Buck up my dear juniors!
I think you guys are much better than me lehh!
But must try to move more yea?
Don't lose confidence just bec of what ding told you!
Haha.
And I rmb my seniors telling us such stuff before SYF.
Move more, expression, feeling, etc.
Good old times, good old times(:
Saw Vivien, Joanne, Timothy, Isabelle, Wei Liat, Randal, Matthew and some others as well too!
That made me miss schooool.
Badly ):

Ooooh, and I did my nails.
Haha. My first diy manicure, count it as passable la k!
First time leh, what you want!

OMG, this poor boy, I wonder if he's waiting for his family members who might nvr come back. ):

Sorry I can't do much to help Japan, but when I first knew about it (I was on my way to Chinatown on the mrt to have dinner and this lady stepped in at the Cityhall station holding the newspaper with the news of Japan's unwelcomed disaster splashed all over the front page as headlines and almost everyone in the cabin turned to look at the lady's newspaper), I stopped at wherever I was and sincerely prayed for their damages to be reduced to the minimum, and as many survivors saved as possible.

That was the very least I could do.

Actually, I thought about donanting some of my savings (like $50? I not working, don't have that much $$$!) to Japan, someone tell me where and how? (:

Other than Japan, I guess some other countries like Taiwan was affected too.

Omg, dear Taiwan.

I was there last year around this time, with dear PRSSCO.

I miss that beautiful country :/

Can't imagine if a catastrophe like that hit S'pore.

Maybe S'pore would have disappeared from the world map by now.

Nvm, today's supposed to have another disaster too.

Because of this super moon.

Idk, especially bright/big/round or whatever, and bec of this, some part of Earth would be badly strucked.

I hope that it won't come true anw, poor Earthlings have more than enough on their plate to worry about.

And Japan's suffering just began last week, we don't want anywhere to suffer anymore, again.

Even though when my mum told my grandfather about Japan's disaster, and my grandparents said that it was "Retribution." (Bec of what they did in WWII), I think otherwise.

C'mon, those Japanese who invaded S'pore must alr be some old ppl or might even have passed away alr.
It's the next generation that are suffering the most.

And some of the things we use are "Made in Japan",

even more so we should give them a helping hand.

And I love Japan's simplydelicious food!

Stay strong Japan, we're all with you.

We will wait and help with your comeback!!!

JAPAN, I LOVE YOU! GAMBATE!!!



People who undergo cosmetic surgery ain't that bad either eh?

Haha, though I've not went through cosmetic surgery before, but I guess others shouldn't look at people who corrected their looks in a different light.

What's wrong with trying to make oneself look better anyway?

With improved looks, figure, etc, it gives ppl confidence.

Some ppl who aren't born lookers like some others withdrew themselves because the society didn't give them enough confidence to love their own looks and live with it.

Cosmetic surgery has since brought hope to these ppl, hope for them to step out and feel accepted.

Not that I'm trying to say that the society doesn't accept ppl who are not as good looking,

but, being humans, all of us are more drawn to pretty things right?

You will naturally give a second look to pretty babes and hot hunks out there rather than those who look more plain and common looking in comparison, isn't that so?

The world, works this way.

Just like a Chinese saying goes, "People need clothes to package themselves, while the Buddha needs a nice coat of gold."

(人靠衣装，佛靠金装。）

Cosmetic surgery ain't that big a deal either.

My two best friends have put on braces to correct their teeth, no one finds it that unusual anymore in present time now.

(and yea, putting on braces is a part of cosmetic surgery, for some who still don't know)

People who despise or don't think well of ppl who have underwent cosmetic surgery before,

should undergo character correction transformation then.

Those ppl are the ones who feel low about themselves,

they are the ones who admire ppl who have the guts to go through a transformation of themselves.

They are also the ones who think that they are the most perfect, and need no extra improvement in themselves.

Of course, don't go overboard doing cosmetic surgery and you must think carefully before you go under the knife.

The surgery have side-effects, and you must be prepared for a failed operation.

If you have considered every factor carefully, mentally prepared, don't skip the step on finding a well-known doctor either.

Some "cheap operations" may be conducted by a doctor who's not skilled or allow himself to compromise on the patient's health.

NEVER COMPROMISE YOUR HEALTH FOR WHATSOEVER REASON.

NOT EVEN FOR CONFIDENCE'S SAKE.

To end this,

Beauty still comes from the inside.

People who may not be borne with the best features may have the best inner beauty you've ever seen.

Whether you had gone through a cosmetic surgery or not,

what matters most is still what is inside you.

People who will stick through life-and-death with you are the ones who have looked inside you,

know that you may not be the most beautiful thing on Earth, but still chose to be with you.

These people themselves, blossom right inside as well. 

Once again,



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