Having a very hard week trying to keep my emotions in check.

Been the third or fourth time crying already over the past 6 days.

Not sure if it is pms or not but highly doubt so because it's been a good long while since the damn thing acted up.

Supposed to be working very hard on my project work now but I couldn't focus as there are too many emotions stucked inside so well I had to write all those feelings somewhere, which is unfortunately for you and fortunately for me, here.

I've always wanted graduation to come fast and quick because I can't wait to break free and start doing all the stuffs that I want, be rid of textbooks and welcome the things that I've been wanting to get my hands (and soul) on.

It is until this very day when bestie, Sandy and I were having a lil chat before we went to work on our project about our future paths that I realised that bestie and I are really gonna be separated now. 

For the past 5 years, my reliance on her grew heavily till at times, I admit that I took her for granted.

We weren't all close right from the start, in fact, I quite disliked her at first because she seem to appear very dao towards me (now also like that la, but I know she loves me a lot now) and very cold also. 

Somehow, in sec 3, we started to become closer and by sec 4, we became regular buddies for studying.

Then when we collected our results, we went to TP's open house and then made the shared decision to enter IFM because we could be in the same class together.

Turns out that IFM wasn't anything that I liked at all but it's all thanks to bestie who really pulled me through till today.

Without her support, without her guidance, without her wake up calls I would have long ago chose to switch courses.

But it's precisely because I could get to be with her that I chose this course right from the start.

It definitely wasn't my field of interest but because bestie is always there, it gave me encouragement to hold on and keep trying harder.

Other than studies alone, all the boy shit stuff happened in my life too.

She isn't the sort of friend who would be all nice and agree along and comfort you.

She tells you the truth of what she thinks, if she thinks that something is not right, she would tell me in the face that it isn't. 

But because she's always so honest with her opinions and genuine towards friends, I love her for that.

In her letters (and chats) to me, she always reminds me of how important family is and that they are the ones who would never leave even if everyone else did and that I should cherish them more.

I'm glad that all the closest friends that I've made and all very family-oriented and that they value kinship a lot and I guess that in turns affects how much they treasure our friendship too.

Although bestie isn't very expressive all the time about how much she values our friendship, her actions always show me how selfless she could be and what a amazing girl she is. 

She isn't the open-to-all and sociable kinda girl but when you become her friend, a real one, she's gonna treat you better than how you do to her 10 times in return.

Bestie and I have very contrasting personalities and seriously, I have no idea why we can become best friends till now or rather, why would she have chosen to stick with a scumbag like me.

I have done so many shit stuff but yet here's someone who have never given up on me no matter how much I changed or how many times I have gotten myself into another trouble and mess.

Someone who always picks up after my mess without complaining, someone who always puts the Sun back into my gloomy days and best of all, still stays in them no matter how dark the days were.

Jun Hao, you're really a lucky guy man.

Treat Felicia wrong and I will hunt you down and snap your neck (nah just kidding, I will only make sure that you can't have kids with another girl for the rest of your life. Okay I'm really joking).

Seriously the guy who marries her must have been a saint in his past life to deserve such a good wife this lifetime.

And to bestie's future room mate:

DAMN IT I HATE YOU BITCH.

You might be a nice person and all but well I'm still gonna hate you because you get to stay in the same room with MY bestie.

Which I have yet to do so before though we did slept on the same bed back in our Taiwan trip!

(That sounds wrong but no, it's not what you are thinking of.)

I hate you la, don't you dare to snatch away my bestie okay.

)':