I am happy but sometimes it feels like my life isn't complete, it feels like something is missing.

And that key to the missing part is someone unique, special and will fit in somehow.

It feels weird how I listen to sad songs now and there isn't anyone in particular my sadness is directed to?

In the past, at least I know who I was crying for, why I was crying when I felt sad.

Nowadays, it seems like sadness is just purely an emotion without feelings.

I don't know if it's a good change like that or not.

It is good as I don't get upset so easily, it's like I am not so vulnerable anymore and I don't let myself be subjected to unnecessary hurt.

The bad point is.... I start to feel empty inside, I'm more worried that there are hidden emotions and feelings deep inside that I subconsciously forced myself not to uncover.

And by the day I uncover all those emotions and feelings, I might fall deeper into sadness.

Hahahahaha.

Complex mindset I guess.

Got someone to like also sad, don't have someone to like also sad lol.

I don't know la, main point is I'm still happy!

Overall I think 2013 is still quite a happy year even though I got estranged from some important people in life.

For some, I guess being distant isn't the biggest loss because it's for a better and more important cause.

At the end of the day, I think I'm still relatively satisfied and happy with what I have now and all the people I've met in life and especially now at internship, I'm extremely thankful for having met a lot of nice colleagues who treats me well and takes a lot of care of me be it in small or big ways.

The biggest encouragements I get is when they will smile at me whenever they see me, it is a small gesture but it is something that contributes to keeping me happy and in lifted spirits.

Especially my manager and supervisor!

I feel very very touched by how nice they are and how much trust they gave to me.

They let me do whatever I deem fit and allow room for discussion and growth and they always close one eye even though I might be slacking. :P

Compared to even just other colleagues working here who report to a different supervisor and manager, I feel very lucky to have them!

"Life is good." This phrase has more than often appeared in my head now which is a great improvement if you considered how upset I'm always feeling in past years!

I think this year my happiness level has really rose a lot!

I have the best of  best friends, a loving family, I MET GD, life is really good!

Being happy is simple.

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