hmm, i had stared at this page without knowing how to start it for like 15mins.
i have a lot that i want to say, but i don't know how to start it off.
maybe, i should just come to the point man.
hmm, i know you guys must have at least for one moment wondered why i was giving attitude today.
i just didn't feel very happy, i don't know why.
there's like this bottle of feelings in my heart which i couldn't open or close it and worse still, i don't even know what i'm feeling.
i just didn't feel very happy or high.
i must clarify, I WASN'T ANGRY WITH ANYBODY.
and if i'm angry, i will be angry with everyone and everything.
this is something i'm sure of.
and one of the reasons i was feeling very low, especially today, was because of math test.
i guess my moodswings are back.
ok, this might sound unpleasant, but you guys have to understand that as human beings, we can't be high and happy like every moment. you have a temper and i have one too.
and the most disappointing thing was that, erm ok, maybe i should put it this way.
i wish that you would have like come around and like ask if i'm ok and like show a bit more concern instead of like asking if i'm still angry and then when i ignored, you just like walked off.
my heart fell as you walked away.
and as friends, it's normal that you show concern for your friend when she's sick right.
don't assume everything that i do is with motive.
it was just purely out of concern.
if i had motive, i wouldn't even have got upset, i would just pretend to be close with everyone, and be high and everything.
i could have just pretended and put on a show.
it's precisely that you guys are my best friends that's why i felt even more disappointed.
anws, sorry if i've spoiled your mood today.
and, for these few weeks (except friday maybe) i will be going home straight after school.
so don't need to wait for me.
hmm, if you guys feel angry or what after reading this, then call me. i think it's better to clarify everything if we still treasure this friendship.
i do treasure our friendship.
and i hope you guys will understand.

i will concentrate on my studies,
because i know that you've made the right decision.