Been having lots of thoughts, emotions and feelings ever since Nick and I started out on our first date on 1 March. 

Doing this post will help me to remember how I feel when we just started out and in future when I read back or if (hopefully not) we had a fight or quarrel and I start to read back my blog, I will remember all these little sweet beginnings and how it wasn't easy for us to have this relationship.
Gonna be quite a wordy post ahead! (Slowly writing this over a long duration of 2 weeks)

To begin with, Nick is my very first boyfriend. It all happened last year when we met from an online game, Mstar (which I have previously blogged about too) and as how most friends are, we weren't very close from the start and I knew him through my classmate. He did not play Mstar very frequently during the period when I was hooked to the game and one day, crew stuff happened and that's when I started to get a little closer to him.

At the same time, I got a lot more closer to our mutual friend Eunice too. We talked quite a bit and were quite close too and we also talked on Whatsapp like real life friends too 'cept that we only first met up just this year. She was also the one whom I turned to a lot when I felt upset and insecure about our relationship and the bridge to bringing me closer to Nick as well. 

For some time both us did not play in the game till some time later when we both so coincidentally returned to the game on the same day and started to become real close and we exchanged numbers and started to talk on a daily basis, over Skype, over text.

In previous posts for the recent months, I blogged about the changes in my emotions, my feelings, doubts, joy etc. All of them were related to this one guy. I admit that up till the day when he agreed to meet, I was still in disbelief. I really didn't dare to think that we were really gonna be together afterall. I thought my feelings were not gonna be reciprocated again. I thought it was just another heaven-sent prank, which turns out to be one of the greatest gifts in life.

We haven't been together for long irl yet, yes. But I could get used to having him almost instantaneously (is it a bad thing though? lol) There are a lot of differences between us yet there are a lot of similarities too. When I'm with him, I feel happy. That happiness cannot be explained, it didn't need for something to happen before I feel that way. It just feels like being by his side was the right place to be, I felt at peace and nothing else really mattered. We did not have to be dining at some fancy place or go to somewhere exotic, because we are with each other, a lot of other stuff didn't matter already (except money, to be more realistic hahahaha).

For one thing that I appreciate a lot in our relationship is the lack of the use of phones. Among close friends, I don't really use my phone too when I'm with them. With him, that frequency is even lower. There was once or twice when I tried to follow up on Instagram or Dayre while I was with him and he said "I didn't come out to watch you use Instagram", which I felt extremely guilty for afterwards.

Communication mattered a lot in any relationship, be it friends or family too and I'm glad that in ours, a lot of effort is put into that. When I go out, I see quite a number of couples who are on their phone constantly and not talking to each other, which is a very sad scenario (likewise for families and I'm trying to change my behaviour when I'm with mine too). In a relationship, there is a lot of commitment involved and it is not easy to always keep that spark going. I guess that's why our older generation seems to have a more everlasting love than what we have nowadays because there is less distractions from each other. Like I said earlier too, this is my first relationship and there is still a lot to know about each other and a lot of give-and-take has to be compromised too. It is not easy but I'm glad that so far things are working out pretty well!

Other than that, a relationship boils down to trust too. There has to be freedom for personal time as well. I admit that I'm a pretty much clingy girlfriend (sorry but not really sorry hehe).
 But hey, do you not want to stick to me? *death-stare*
Nah, just kidding! :P

Yea, so I guess the most important thing is to have fun and don't take things too seriously. I mean yes, you have to be serious about your commitment to each other and all but you don't have to be tense and critical at every aspect of the relationship. I enjoy and have a lot of fun whenever I'm out with him and I could be myself and do silly and stupid things and image totally was not a concern.
I didn't have to care whether my hair was messy or not, or that I had to re-apply my make-up every few hours. The thing we care about most was just having one another.

Anyway, tomorrow is gonna be our very first monthsary and I'm really glad to have enjoyed such an amazing March with him!
Cannot be happier than this and I feel like the luckiest girl ever since we got together. (;

Hi baby,
I just want to tell you that I feel extremely proud and honoured to be your girlfriend.
There are a few times where I cannot take control of my emotions and started crying where I haven't had a proper explanation for you. I will explain that in my letter okay? 
While this is still very much the honeymoon period for us, there are still a lot for us to learn about each other and there will definitely be times when we have conflicts and all.
But despite all that we also have a lot of things that we didn't have to learn that came so naturally to both of us where we clicked off right away.
Thank you for everything and I really think that our relationship is one of the most amazing things that happened in my entire life. 
Hehe, I will leave the rest in my letter for you!

I love you.
Very very very very very much. 

Our very first date yesterday.

Hehehe. 

I can only say that it is pure bliss to know that you have someone to rely on when you are tired.

Looking forward to more dates in the future!

♥♥♥ 

Going through Top Best R&B songs of 2009 and 2013 thanks to boyf's very distinct and specific taste in music.

K la, good taste la.

And you very cute also so I forgive your commentary on K-Pop hahahahaha

Ai ni. 

While I appreciate every caring word you say, I appreciate even more to be able to enjoy silent moments with you without it being awkward whatsoever. 

And while your singing isn't all that nice, to me it is the sweetest and most melodious voice ever. I find comfort and peace when I listen to you sing. 

Amazing boyf who called at the exact right timing when I needed him most.

Ugh what a tough night, but can't feel warmer than this to know that you're always there to listen.



I can't be more proud to show off to the whole world that I'm your girlfriend.

Sometimes I feel like the relationship that the two of us is having isn't real and sometimes it gives me the feeling that he isn't really that into me.

But like what a friend said, I had to have trust and faith and I did and started to not be uptight over every small little thing and I am so much more happier now.

Also, it seems like that he really is into the relationship too and not just me falling in hopelessly alone.

Even though his character is more laid-back and sorta heck care, but I appreciate the effort that he puts in to make me feel not so upset and insecure. 

He also showed that no matter what happens, I still have him to turn to and confide my problems to and he would always be around to hear what I have to say.

I do have to admit that there were some rough periods earlier, but things are kinda more stable now.

I think it's just plain romantic to fall in love with the same guy over and over again in different ways, and to know that someone thinks of you before he goes to bed. It feels as if "I'm home" when I'm back by your side. (':