i'm gonna dedicate this very first post of the year to beloved sisters<3.if i ever get hurt because of what you said or did, it's bec i love you guys too much.
please remember this forever ok!!
no matter how much we quarrel in the day,
we still know each other so well and thorough.
this is not hao ting hua! it's true!!!
sometimes, we do things that indirectly hurt each other, but it remains in our minds that we're each other's top priorities.
among sisters, i guess i'm the most difficult to handle.
i have so much mood swings going on everyday, and i often do so many unexpected things that you all fear. haha, say until like so scary liddat.
i'm someone who fear neglect a lot.
and subconciously, i'll do things that i think will make me feel secure.
perhaps you guys might think why i seem to be so high every second, but i guess that is my own way of protecting myself from getting hurt and feel down, but the more high i get, the emptiness in my heart just accumulates. sometimes, i try very hard to be myself. but i realised i can no longer do so because maybe being high has been a natural instinct from preventing myself from getting less attention from you all, or getting hurt when i don't get high.
maybe you're thinking that there's no such reason to feel this way because i don't ever have to feel neglected.
but, how? it's been in my blood since i was born.
I'm a attention seeker type of person.
so neglect that i think is neglect to me may not be to you so do understand i'm yearning for some attention whenever i'm high ok!!
haha.
hmm, i haven't really had any very close-to-heart friends till i met you guys. the starting when i just joined you all, it's true that inadvertently, i'll feel out of place and feel that i don't belong to you all, and i was really afraid that things won't work out between us. that's why at the start, i try very very very hard to be close to you all, in my own way. as time passes, our friendship of course had grown from pure acquaintances to sisters now. i treasure this friendship and that's why on my birthday, i had insisted everyone to buy a friendship band. i want us to be bonded phsically by the band and even more so, for the band to represent that we're bonded heart-to-heart too.
i feel that i'm quite simple at times.
i give what i think is the best to people i love a lot, and they refer to YOU, sister.
it might not be the best in your eyes but bear in mind that i always try to give you what i considered my everything and the best.
sisters,
you definitely mean much more than him. i don't deny he's important but without you, would i still have walked so cheerfully till thus far?
my answer would be NO.
and that's why my title says, "sisters mean much more than just love".
guys can betray you, but sisters, i trust, would never turn their backs on you.
and i hope we'll always keep in contact and for us to be together always.
even if we go to different paths after our graduation,
i believe, if we make enough effort, our paths will come together again.
I LOVE YOU, SISTERS!
i still love you, but i guess i shouldn't miss out something more important in life.
